that day, she wondered...

that day, she wondered...

if life sounded so easy like the tips of the finger, probably everything would go smooth without even care of the hurdles ahead. she asked herself, "what would it feel to achieve things for oneself, not for anyone just you, yourself though the path you lead right now seemed not originally your own choice? would it matter?"

after a long pause, she kept saying "I hate this part right here, I just can't take it anymore.. why can't I accept this life? my faith is running out badly.."

yes it hurt a lot when she could not understand the way things happened. even though it hurt but a little, tears formed from her damaged heart, not able to hide it anymore. her heart screamed out very badly to the extent she could not breathe. she did not choose this life but she needed to go through it.

then in a weak voice she said,..

"You make me restless, you make me cry
Like a fool, like a child
I want to just laugh it off instead..
though this kind of life I hate it very much."