music: "Akanishi Jin - Care"
Few minutes later, she tantrumed…
“okay I admit! I want to be loved by someone. but I have no one beside me. it is not loneliness but it’s the matter of filling your heart with love. my heart has so much to contain but it is empty. when will I find that man? if it is true all of us have our own fate, why doesn’t that man appear to me now? or is it I haven’t notice if he is around? or my eyes just ignore the presence of a man? it is not that I don’t believe fate and destiny, just maybe my heart is leaking because there is too much love inside. a year has passed and I recover now? is it the right time to spend time for love now? do I have a choice? what makes me want to be loved now? don’t you think it is too fast? I have so much to offer but why now? why can’t I block this little heart for a bit longer? why I wish someone to save my heart? did I hurt so much in the past? yes, I was hurt yet now still hurting. my love lives fill with sad memories, and I still want to love and be loved again? why now? why these tiny hearts recover so much? I am so helpless. please God, I don’t want to be in pain now. not anymore. don’t let me feel this way. it’s so hard for me.”
