mood:
In the mean time, she felt…
“a pain sigh illustrates my face. inside I could feel bitterness surrounded my heart. I don’t know when since I changed to such a cold hearted girl. felt so lost and I don’t remember what I want for life. lost my senses to feel? is it I was too hurt from such guys who keep left me behind? so hurt that makes me bury the frozen icy lonely heart of mine. I wish the happiness was always with me. I often dream a prince that would chase and grab my heart forever. that dream started when I learn how to love and being in love. I drop too hard this time. I kept hiding myself in the bushes, afraid to face life. it was not right to be like this; therefore in a slow pace I try to seek the lost smile that was mine before. during the finding, I shall face a lot of obstacles and might reject the one who fall me in the future. so I left a scarlet letter to rewrite the dream that lead towards the key to open my heart. if he was so lucky, he will understand me before I run too far. The letter shall begin like this;
“Oh someone there, I always hope the one will notice is someone who treasure me because I am special to him. I wish the one could love me without hesitate about the love I had for him. sincerity and trustworthy are what I seek. no matter how far we are apart, the love should not be faded away. both of us should tolerate and help each other to protect the love we had. I was full of symbolic thoughts in my characteristic. long ago, I had the seventh ring on my fingers but later one by one lost nowhere to be found. And two was left. it resembles the love memories during my childhood days till I was grown up to an early stage of adulthood. in my heart, how I wish if the one could replace the ring I had with the new ring from him. I don’t care if he does not spend luxury things during my birthday or anniversary. just went out together for fun should be enough. maybe it sounds so childish but that what I wish for. sometimes love is so childish right. am I not worth or is it not enough to be treasure. I wonder why…”
sleeps.
