mood:
Since that day, she felt..
"I guess I can smile happily now. the wound still there but I am a bit relief after those teary days. I don't exactly remember for how long I remain like that. for sure these days I am getting better. finally I heal myself. yes god knows how i've been through."
"hating him?
don't seem to have that. forgiven?
I am not sure it's the best answer.
freedom?
yes, that's so true.
I am a different person now. regret?
still have those but everyday becomes less and less. lonely?
am I experiencing loneliness?"
"not exactly. my heart is empty but I don't feel loneliness there. it's kind of relief and I continue life as usual. (laughs) when I saw couples passing in front of me, I don't get jealous. it's not that I am denying, just the matter of seeing that as normal."
"I don't feel anything towards romantic feeling. to have someone nearby is lucky, but I stop seeing someone just for the sake of filling the emptiness. I guess i've changed a bit. my befriend got lucky too. plan to marry few number of years. i thought "woah!" it's cool. I am happy for her. miss her so much. she has been worried about me. I told her to stop. because I am fine now.
"move on? yes indeed. I am not scared anymore.
but she asked "why your heart is frozen? not accepting anyone?"
"I laugh and grin at her. then I answered "my heart tells me to stop. it's time to forget things that make you sad. so that's how I act these days. not being cold. I befriend with lots of people. but I am not excited about having someone yet." she nodded. agree? well it could be. I guess to walk to that door,... enjoying life as free as I can."
"what else do I need if I am that happy right? do you think so?"
she ended...
