yesterday, its over...

yesterday, "it's over" she said. after these two years, she finally settled down for feeling she has been buried deep inside. he, the man she once loved, came with a news she never thought it would be that way. perhaps she didn't expect the man grew to be more gentle this time. more wise and more thoughtful. perhaps, God finally ordered to let all those past bitter memories to be washed away completely. the long letter she received two days ago, she thought it was time to reply with such true and honest. she needed to claim what has been left inside to let the other know and understand the current situation more.. this was her reply,...

"yosh.. hi! um i think i gotta tell u something now.. clear and precise and honest from me.. yesterday.. its really great to hear what u gonna say after 2 years of our break up... i really appreciate it though its not helping me now.. would be nice if u said it earlier.. but after 2 years, and ure in front me.. it seems something hard crawling in my heart.. its not that i hate u or mad at u anymore.. just feel, we shouldnt take back what has been left behind.. both of us have moved on.. lets just be friend from far.. i dont need u to be my real friend.. and we dont even need to pursue to be what-so-called nice friend to each other.. my existence doesnt seem important to u as well as u to me.. lets just accept that we are friends but no longer can be that kind of friends that pick up their nose to each other business.. if we accidentally met in the future, we could say hi.. but thats it.. i just dont want it to be deep.. as a surface, im your friend.. but not your true friend.. i dont care what u might think of me anymore.. ive already changed a lot.. im not the same and not what u think of me in the past.. and i dont even know u at all too now.. we r strangers that dont know each other now.. but a lil bit, there's something each of us dont forget.. i dont even know how to call ur name properly anymore.. to let u know, when you came in my life years ago, truely you brought brighter day when i was in rainy days.. thank you for all those moments.. as i said, there's no point in seeing u again.. dont mistaken by this.. its just i want to properly say farewell.. we r not even enemy, still friend but not that kind of friend u might think.. lets stop here.. i dont want u in my ym list anymore.. no need to contact each other... not really important to poke business in ur life now.. u have urs, and i have mine.. im sorry if i did something bad in the past.. i forgive all ur wrong doings to me.. hope u can be the same too.. i wish u lead in greater life.. u dont need to know mine.. im happy with my life now.. though i dont have someone new, im not lonely at all.. ive really changed.. im strong now.. more stronger than u thought.. dont worry, i wont HAUNT u in your dreams or living in your NIGHTMARE.. its over *winks* farewell.. ^_^"

throughout the day, she patiently waited for the man to give his reply. in the evening, after his work she guessed, the reply came. and she can finally smile..

"wow...long one ...just got back..i understand n respect the decision..sorry for all the trouble, torturing, misunderstood, hardship, pushing n awkward moment i cause..its not my intension to do so...hope u r doing fine n got what u strive for..good luck okay? ^_^"

she sat on the lazy chair, inhaling the fresh evening air.. she watched the butterflies danced among the tulips and roses.. she was amused at the sight... later, her eyes closed due to tiredness.. yes the hardship she had been struggled for all these years.. the pain she tried to endure alone.. soon everything seemed to disappear, and she can finally fly with free wings.. embarked a new journey without hurting anymore..

"it's sad, but i guess it is for the best. and we both knew our love grew in the past and forever be just memorries.. thank you, perhaps we are not destined in the same ship.." she smile bitterly but her heart was set free.. free like those birds.. no worries no more..